How could I have been so blind?

I missed the meaning in a look, a touch and

whispered words.

My heart had informed my senses,

and it had become dulled to nuance.

My world was as gray as the winter sky,

clouds so thick that the sun could not break through.

I was sad to think you might be leaving me,

but the signs were there,

small changes creeping into our lives

ever so slowly.

And when you said, “we need to talk,”

I thought,

“This is it.”

Braced for the brunt of goodbye,

I sat still and listened.

“Let’s get away,” you said.

“I think it would be good for both of us.”

6 thoughts on “Surprised

    1. Madeline Bialecki Post author

      Thank you. The funny thing is that I don’t know where this came from as I am not in a relationship right now. I think it might be God reminding me I have not been on retreat for two years (my May retreat was cancelled because of COVID). I miss my week of silence with God and hope retreat houses will open this year.

  1. Madeline Bialecki Post author

    I wish I was that disciplined, but I find it difficult to disengage from my life when I am at home. I could (and may) rent a cottage by the water and get away for a few days by myself (with God). thanks for your encouragement.

    1. janesig

      I find that too. Home life rarely leads to the type of disengagement needed for retreat. I compromised last year; booked a week away at a theological college and had the input of a retreat guide- via Zoom. A cottage by the water sounds an excellent idea.

      1. Madeline Bialecki Post author

        Thanks, Jane. I am considering my options. The retreat center where I usually go has a few cottages on their grounds, and that might be an option (the retreat center itself is closed). Challenging times call for creative thinking!

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